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I've always Maintained that the reason for by blog to be so devoid of happiness is that I'm never alone when I'm happy,but thats only half true...The other half reason is that i never thought i can do justice to the magnificence of the sun setting on a beach,that anyone can ever contain in words and lines,the feeling of elation you feel when you almost cry laughing with your friends,family...It is true that Words are definitely more Powerful than anything else known to mankind,But happiness, I think is Something much beyond Power....Something that can never be contained by Power alone....even Words.

And so you have to remember that I've felt pleasure way more than what i can ever tell you I've felt...

Happiness once was 4 friends,A Car
A song playing,And an orange sun racing me.
It once was a full moon and a soft breeze
Once a golden lamp lit temple
It once was all eternity..

When you realize that there couldn't be a better combination of time,space and matter...You'll feel god smiling upon you...A little happy and a little jealous...Cause at that instant,You're better off than he is.

I guess that is when you know that you are happy.Not when you feel that nothing can go wrong,but when you feel that nothing Is wrong.That life,as it is,is just perfect.

Grim

*Sometimes,Youngistaan is Grim,And then they write like this :)
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As a Free thinker,i do not hesitate eating a piece of chocolate right off the floor!!!

It is as stupid as hell when your brains do not stop thinking about all the things that aren't worth the tiny little electric impulses.About all the things you need to forget majorly because you constantly remind yourself that you really have to.Frozen lakes,Falling snow,Singeing Embarrassments etc.I mean ,you really cannot do anything if you feel intimidated by a fifteen year old boy who has written an Excellent piece on Communism with Sarcasm at all the right places.It doesn't help that you know nothing about Communism except that it is somehow related to Russia and some other places famous for Cigars and cheap Cell phones...

Wiki helps....and not.

But intimidation is much better than shame.And if you guys need an elaboration on shame,Ask yourself these questions.

1)What part of the globe does New Zealand lie?
2)When was the last time you said 'horn rimmed' glasses had horns on the side?
3)When was the last time you stopped something wrong?

Don't worry much,most of us have similar answers to these.

Now,lets do the news.(To those who watch TG, I fashion myself to have Jeremy's wits)

1)The World has a universal hobby now.Social networking.
2)Osmania university student finds out setting a bus ablaze doesn't work,tries it on himself.
3)Tiger Woods apologises for having lots of sex,Wayne Bridge has none at all.
4)Rahul mahajan chooses a bride on national television,just to prove he aint gay.

Breaking news.
1)Commissioner's dog returns!
2)Aaj tak finds Ravan's mummy.

Yes, i know.Hail the Indian media!
Better yet,hail us!!(especially the educated lot)

You have to understand that what we have is just a mimic of what education really is....and a little longer yet,you cant wait to show that finger to the ass who teaches you about electrical machines.

The next time you have your status message as 'Fuck you,I dont care' Think again...Do we??

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You think enough and realize,between all the Concoted truths and Deceitful dreams........You are,and are not,the center of the universe.




Flowers that i hate,have fully bloomed tonight
I realize I've lost and still, I fight
Darkness bleeds despair and a redemption dead
I seek my trust,in all the lies you've led.

My little dreams,
Be sang in hell,be sang in screams
My little dreams

Take back the City!

One long bus ride, i guess is all you need to realise a post about your city,would be perfect...!

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Hyderabad-princely state people!!or maybe it once was...i don't think osman ali khan would have been too sad to let it go if he had lived another 40 years,or maybe it wasn't that 'princely' a state ever...

Prides-The city was mughal,and that part of it never changed.Never will, i think.

The Golconda fort(Never been there,cant tell you much)

The Charminar-(people here are very proud of it,guess they ought to be).Definitely a sad place.I'd rather have the fish fries there.'CAN DEFINE NEGLECTED'

The Salarjung museum-History,names,dates,famous people,famous paintings of famous people, their famous clothes,famous beds,famous pens,famous inks and so on.But yes, a lot to know,loads to understand and is full of boredom.'DEFINITELY A MUSEUM'

Hi tech city-Google,computers and fantastic buildings. 'CYBERBAD!!!'

and the new air port....this ones real sweet people!!

People-People here are just like they are everywhere else.They love T.V and hate sense.They stay up late nights only for exams or day night cricket matches,nothing else.And they love their home.They'll love you if you are one of them.They'll leave you alone if you are not.They'll kill you if you swear at them.

They aint good,they aint bad.They just people and most of them are lazy.or maybe lazy and determined.lazily determined...and so is the city.

The food-Hyderabadi chicken Biriyanis,fish fries,mutton chops(3 things you'll need to survive)'FINGER LICKIN GOOD!!'

Irani chai(i heard its nice,not much into teas n stuff)

The spirit-Sweet,Sad and extremely contagious.'ITS A CITY!!'

The place is something like host to a parasite.Millions of them!!(the people)and they prosper belligerently.

Substance-The twin cities,they confound us with very deceptive differences.Hyderabad is known for the grandeur and royalty and stupid funny hindi while sec bad is more like a cozy housing complex with a slightly better accent.But i think they share a common heart(just that the limbs aren't a team.)The place can turn out to be an absolute paradise for anyone,coz its got a huge range of everything.(from VIP lounges to slums,from bars to 'strictly' veg.restaurants,from people to gods...)

Character- I was sitting in this 'HUDA' park(they are common around here,not as much as 'HOT CHIPS' though) the other day, and i almost laughed out loud.

The sweet old place was lying to the people,to itself. It said "clean hyderabad,green hyderabad" and right there on the board was the result of some idiot not finding a spitoon."green hyd,clean hyd", was so sickeningly red now.The water was sparkling green as well.Sewage,garbage,pee,animal faeces,human faeces and a lot more i think.Trust me guys, this park was as green as it could get!!Almost every other place in hyd is like this park-Exasperatingly bad at lying..

Everyone there though,was in love with the place and the evening.Happy People,Dirty birds,Dead fish,Everyone!!

It was like they knew this place,accepted it and rejoiced in it. So i think its like this place which tells lies,lures people and then makes them love it.The traffic,the honks,the roads,the dirt,the smugness,the green water,the people....Anyone not from hyd would hate the place but everyone from hyd would love it(me be one,ma'am!).'BEWITCHING'

That evening, was spent in blissful laziness.

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Speak to the morning now,shout to the rain
Taste some honey with the clouds up,gray
Talk to crows,and watch them say
'An ignorant life with a blissful pay'
And the games we play..

Thoughts that brains have not thought through
The time when spent wouldn't cost you?
A spark,an illusion,some magic true
With horses and Kings and Dragons,few
'Where heart's a fool,and mind astray'

Dance with the river,as history sings
Dance with the wind,the church bell rings
Dance with the joker,dance with the Ace
Dance like the daffodils,by the side of France
Dance your years away
'We dance our wisdom away'

A place we lead,A place we brought
Some kindness sold,some happiness bought
but the place we leave can never be
a place of peace,or summers green
'prayers,i was taught...'

The Laugh

She was doing it .She does that all the time...All the time.

She was laughing ,and every inch of my wasted heart wanted to sing to her,to tell her that i loved her.But i wouldnt.I swore to god that i'd not tell her that.

I did not tell her that i loved her when she left...

I searched for the needle.I had one,I had one all the time.I wouldnt ever be tricked by her again.Not when i am conscious.Not when my brain was still thinking.The Needle would save me .
The strap felt tighter.The arm was swelling, it was going blue and dried blood was waiting to be punctured .But Heroin is better than her.Less painful and faster.And it helps me tell her i Wait and Want,like a new born child....
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The hall was lighted by a thousand candles.She was in my arms,swaying.Music and Magic intertwined with Love and Lust.I held her tighter still.Till i could feel every part of her,Touching,Teasing,Inviting.I could hear my heart pump a longing through my veins.A longing that drove intense heat all through my body,down to my toes and up to my fingers.It felt like her eyes were the only truthful things,that an only perfect World lay somewhere in them.Everything else was just an illusion,False.We kissed and the candles went out.
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I was chasing her.And she was laughing.No,maybe i was laughing,maybe we both were.I caught her,there were marigolds all around us.And she was flying along with the butter flies .I was just looking at her.She seemed to have become an angel.She had a halo.A big golden halo....
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She looked at me with that question again. I looked at her and i smiled.The garden was gone now,wind from the seas were singing about mermaids and dead love.I wanted to lie down on the sand with her,but she said she had to go.She said she wasn't mine now.She looked at me with that question again,smiling the saddest smile any god has ever witnessed.
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And the room was full of them.Mirrors.And each of them was staring at me with the same question.
'Why?'

'I love you' i said to her Laughter again...and she stopped.

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Happy New Year People!!

And i know its cliche...so bite me!

Dust and Dreams

Dust and Dreams fill my eyes
As i go slow through this road
A weary jacket,with the years grown
While forgotten tryst,smiles a road alone
All alone..

Scorching heat,my wheels have felt
Dry and hard,the winds have been
But friends i've grown, with the desert sand
And the night shall see us drink
To a rose,astrand..

Hate and glare have filled me up
Love and life have cooled me down
And as long i ride,i shall be
The king of heavens and seven seas
All mine,it feels..

Curtains and lives have been run past
Memories and pain and revelations last
but i don't care if i win or lose
The race with an Orange sun
for the new tomorrow.

Dust and dreams in my eyes...

Angel,disgraced

Kill me now,before i shout
Kill me here,before i hate
Take me now,when i am tame
Kill me before i say your name

For times when i shall be set free
Horrid truths would come to be
When 'love' would turn to 'want'
And a 'gift' shall turn to 'need'
And you shall see...

Hurt it would,and pain a lot
As my heart would heave a sigh,
Heavens would close and prisons call
When a fallen god shall cry
On a silent pyre...

Drink and lust would take me home,
To a ship with pirate's flag
And a frightened devil would sit amazed,
When I sing about my angel,disgraced.